Searching

We are all searching......

" When your born that's where your journey begins. Every milestone you hit is another rank up towards your destination. Those moments when failure is all you feel, those are the moments you cherish because they are what makes you whole. "

I started to realize that I've been brainwashing myself into all things that are created into my lifestyle. After 2016, the search was once again challenged. Did you know those voices in your head are in other words like believing in God? It's a figment of our imagination that we created to cope with our daily lives 

 " what make it different? " 

We thrive for what exactly in life? Have you really stopped and inspected the actual situations happening or is going with the flow just something engraved in us. Who even started that trend? Why hasn't it stopped, faded away? We challenge ourselves on the daily. But what is the end goal? Why is there so many hate, yet different journeys? Who are we to judge the next? Hatred is something taught, so why is that like a cycle of hell for all of us. One way or another go through the same thing just in our own way. So why not work together instead of being enemies. We could amount to so much beautiful things yet the door continues to stay closed. Why is that a never ending cycle of trauma we go through? 

Wanting to be better yet drowning in the same pain. 

" I got off track " 

Does that ever happen! How often? Mine is like a C.D player with a scratched disc! One day I hope the door is opened enough for the light to shine through,

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