Faith?!?

I am home. 

Then I stopped, I didn't really understand what that even meant. I don't even remember the last time I felt anywhere was home. I have a home in my heart. But it hasn't been good enough! 

Having faith. 

Is something I struggle with, we all want to believe there is something bigger out there for us. But where does it even start? 

This house is filling itself. 

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